Thursday, January 20, 2011

galloping heart

I've been pregnant for three months now but until yesterday it just felt like an annoying virus. A virus with intense nausea and dry heaving. And abdominal cramping and shortness of breath. Then came the extreme exhaustion. Worse than the exhaustion I felt after a long run. Then the peeing five times a night and the HUNGER cured only by peanut butter and jelly sandwiches at 4 a.m.

But still, no real evidence that a baby was causing this.

Then yesterday, we heard the evidence that in fact, there was a baby in there! I was warned that it might take a few minutes to find it. After a minute or so plus some deep breaths heavy with anxiety, little baby appeared. Like galloping horses in a tunnel.

In the moment, I was relieved. Shea was the emotional one. Now, every time I watch it and see the smile on my face as the heartbeat appears, I cry.

Our friend from church had us over for dinner (a becoming weekly tradition) and surprised us with a happy heartbeat cake. Because it was a very big day.

Now it feels real. There is a real live baby in there. A baby - who is now the size of a plum - that is loved. And who has the most beautiful heartbeat.


  1. So exciting!! A little heartbeat! I am definitely going to be living vicariously through your pregnancy, so keep us posted!!

  2. You look so excited and relieved when you hear the heartbeat! Isn't it such an amazing feeling? Your post and your video gives me goosebumps and brings a happy tear to my eye :)

  3. congratulations! a very happy day indeed! I imagine that those few minutes of searching would make me suuuuper anxious, you handled it like a champ! can't wait to follow along on your journey!

  4. Oh my gosh, I totally just teared up watching your heartbeat video!! I am so excited to read all of the updates :)

  5. Congratulations!! This is a wonderous time for you :) Looking forward to following along through your posts :)

  6. Congratulations!! I can just see the happiness on your face :-)